Thursday, October 27, 2011

Antsy

You know, it's a bad thing to be in a "leave me the fuck alone" mood when you're a teacher.  People are constantly coming up to you asking questions and asking for favors and asking the same damn thing over and over again.  And, all I want to do is just yell at every single one of them and tell them they're being idiots and to just leave me the hell alone.  Blah.

Not sure why I'm in such a rotten mood right now but I really don't want to deal with people.  It's the kind of mood I usually get into right before AF shows up.  Just feeling hormonal, I guess.

I keep having moments of incredibly strong cramps that have me bent over in pain for about 10 seconds or so that I just have to stop and breathe through.  I hope it's just the progesterone or my ovaries still swollen and cyst-y.  It's not particularly confidence-inspiring.  It hasn't been enough that I've felt like I needed to call the doctor.  Not much I can do about it right now, though.

Sorry, just needed to vent a bit.  Still trying to stay positive and keep everything crossed until the first peek next week.
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18 comments:

  1. waiting and wishingOctober 27, 2011 at 10:47 AM

    This is exactly why I knew I couldn't continue teaching elementary school while we pursued fertility treatments! I hope the cramps are just your ute stretching and making room for lots and lots of growth!

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  2. JillOctober 27, 2011 at 11:05 AM

    I've been in that "leave me the fuck alone" mood all week. It doesn't mix well with teaching at all, let alone midterms. I find myself getting short with students for no reason. Take the cramping as a good sign - things are stretching and arranging themselves. You are still pregnant - it hasn't been proven otherwise.

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  3. MaryMargaretOctober 27, 2011 at 12:33 PM

    You're allowed to have those days. I have those WEEKS! I admire your ability to keep your mouth shut, though. I'm convinced I'd be fired if I had to deal with other people's children all day! Positive thoughts sent your way for your US.

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  4. someday-soonOctober 27, 2011 at 12:41 PM

    The fatigue of 1T is overwhelming. I remember shutting my office door and putting on my headset to pretend I was on a phone conference so people would leave me alone =) One food in front of the other sister...you're doing great!

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  5. someday-soonOctober 27, 2011 at 12:42 PM

    Ok, that's one foot in front of the other...but food works too ;-)

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  6. DawnOctober 27, 2011 at 1:03 PM

    I used to nap in my car sometimes during lunch. I would have gone home, but it was 45 minutes away. The exhaustion is brutal. I had a lot of cramping in the 1T. One night I was convinced AF was coming, but it was just B&G making some room for themselves. I'm sure that is what is happening to you. It's just so scary how much the first tri can be like PMS.

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  7. AnonymousOctober 27, 2011 at 1:18 PM

    You know you can always vent here! Hope the 1T gets easier!

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  8. AnonymousOctober 27, 2011 at 8:14 PM

    Thats what we are here for :)

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  9. DandelionBreezeOctober 27, 2011 at 11:31 PM

    Progesterone can do all kind of weird thing... and I felt very very moody on it... but if you're worried about the cramps, you should call - could you get an earlier US for reassurance ? Love to you & bub always xoxo

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  10. AnonymousOctober 28, 2011 at 3:26 AM

    Ouch, hope the cramps calms down soon. You are not alone in feeling antsy, that's for sure. I wasn't prepared for these kind of mood-swings at all!

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  11. Mel.October 28, 2011 at 11:08 AM

    The cramps are totally normal (not that it makes them less scary...) and so is being totally cranky. Besides, people are stupid and annoying so of course they're making you crazy.... :)

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  12. erikaOctober 28, 2011 at 4:49 PM

    You have to allow yourself to feel/be the way you are. It is not easy to get through these first couple of weeks! I hope you guys will have afun relaxing weekend full of distractions;)
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    Yup, the cramping sucks! it takes a while until you figure them out and can stop being nervous about them. Not easy.

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  13. KellyOctober 28, 2011 at 6:15 PM

    I totally get it! Teaching is tough when you're in one of those moods!

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  14. Living Our Life in CyclesOctober 28, 2011 at 7:18 PM

    Oh yes, being a teacher on days like it is nearly impossible. I had several days like that this week and I just wanted to be home on the couch. Sorry to hear about the cramping. I hope you have a good weekend!

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  15. AnonymousOctober 29, 2011 at 10:25 AM

    (((HUGS))) hang in there! The whole process is so nervewracking! I remember thinking "ok..if I get to this point, then I'll relax" Sadly, I think I finally let my guard down after my amnio & I was still terrified. One day at a time is all you can do. Looking forward to hearing about your u/s

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  16. AlexOctober 29, 2011 at 10:00 PM

    Each day can be a bear just to make it through during the first trimester. Hang in there!!!

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  17. AshleeOctober 30, 2011 at 12:14 PM

    I am totally with you on the teacher issue - there are days (sometimes whole weeks) when I wish I could just sit in a cubicle and answer emails all day. But we can't... hang in there and try to stay postitive! I am thinking good thoughts for you!

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  18. AnonymousOctober 31, 2011 at 12:01 AM

    I had LOTS of cramping early in this pregnancy. It's nerve-wracking, but then as soon as it disappears, that becomes nerve-wracking too.

    I hope time goes fast until the first peek inside, but I also know how insane that is to hope.

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