No cysts -- go Femara -- so we're getting going again. Femara 5 mg CD3-7. Next u/s schedule on Tuesday the 16th. If all goes as planned we'll do IUI #4 shortly after that.
I wish I felt even vaguely excited about this. There was a time when I was SO excited to get to do an IUI (basically all the months that they kept being canceled). By now I really feel like we're only doing them because it's better than doing nothing. The percentages are just so low. I know it's better than on our own, but from what I've managed to gather, given my age and FSH levels we're looking at a 10% or so chance each time around. Yeah, that's better than nothing and it's better than on our own, but it really feels pointless. I know there's always a chance. The statistics are there -- someone actually does get pregnant this way sometimes. But, I just feel like it's never going to work.
If this cycle doesn't work we'll have a "where do we go from here" talk with the RE. More than likely we'd be headed to IVF this summer. I wish I thought that wasn't a certainty. We may talk about injects, but I feel like we'll probably skip it. I don't like the lack of control on numbers with injects and it's ridiculously expensive. If we're going to put our money into something, I want something with a higher success rate. Besides, summer is the only time I think I could actually do it. I'm teaching this summer, but only three days a week in the mornings. So, there is a vague possibility of finding the time to travel 3 hours every other day or every day to and from the doctor's office. Any other time, I think I'd have to take a leave of absence.
It was a kind of sucky weekend. I spent most of it on one sofa or another. Crying half the time or close to it.
Anyway, this wasn't actually meant to be a depressed, "woe is me" kind of post.
So...ahem...let's start over again...
Woohoo! No cysts!! Let's get going on that next IUI cycle!! This could be the one!
Woo Hoo for no cysts! I learned that with IF, we have to celebrate the little victories. Crossing my fingers for this IUI!!!
ReplyDeleteWoohoo for no cysts! I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this IUI brings you success!
ReplyDeleteYeah for no cysts!! I am so glad that you are able to get started and I will be h&p that this is your cycle!!
ReplyDeleteWoo hoo! Actually, WOO HOO!!! NO CYSTS! That's great news. :) You know I'm right behind you pulling for you this cycle. Sending you all of the positive thoughts I can that this cycle is a success so you don't have to think about that other dreaded acronym anymore...
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
No cysts is an awesome thing!
ReplyDeleteHoping you feel better soon and 10% is still a chance!!
Yeah for no cysts!
ReplyDelete-hugs- I understand your thoughts behind all of this, and feeling depressed. It's frustrating to think of all the money/time we invest to have a child, when some just go "oops! I got pregnant!"
I'm here behind you 100% and I'm crossing my fingers that this works out for you!
hooray for no cysts!!!
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel, because my FSH isn't that great sometimes either. how's your E2? They both vary month to month, but they say you're only as fertile as your highest #'s. From what you've said so far, it sounds like your chances are much higher than 10%. crossing everything I've got & sending reassuring (((HUGS)))!!!
Hi Rebecca
ReplyDeleteSorry you were feeling low this weekend. I totally understand how you feel - like you're gambling on a losing horse. I understand wanting to do something with higher odds. It's great that you have a plan to organize your time and money.
But please don't diss your ovaries, you'll make them sad! Those hard working organs might just surprise you, now that they don't have those bothersome cysts to slow them down!
Try rubbing your belly and giving them a little pep talk - they'll appreciate the reassurance!
I truly hope this is THE cycle!
In the meantime, vent all you want - you have a
right to feel pissed off and tired!