...doesn't mean that everyone isn't whispering behind your back about you being pregnant.
OK, so I know that over the past year and a half or so, many of the women and some of the men in my building have probably been involved in some conversation or another about when my DH and I are going to have kids. (Many of them to my face.) My DH and I work together, and as we've been reminded "aren't getting any younger" and many of them were at our wedding. I've dodged many questions. I've changed many a subject. I've had to bend down to get people to look at my eyes instead of staring at my stomach.
I'm sure I'm just more sensitive because I've got a secret. But, I swear in the past 5 days it's gotten worse. See, part of the problem is that the walls are really thin in between our offices. I've had to have lots of veiled, half-whispered conversations with RE receptionists and nurses over the past 10 months: "I started today and I need to schedule something..." Monday afternoon, my office neighbor (the one who, about a year ago, told an alumna to rub her child on me hoping it would "rub off") came running into my office with a big grin and asked me how I was doing. This was about five minutes after I'd gotten off the phone with the nurse to reschedule my u/s (we changed it to 6w6d). I was practically whispering on the phone and it isn't like I haven't been scheduling u/s appointments for almost a year, but I'm certain that she knows...
And of course, the fact that I am currently a giant ball of bloatedness isn't helping! I start the day with my pants fitting and, by the end of the day, I'm hanging out over the top. It's amazing, I look three months pregnant at the end of the day! I'm going to have to start wearing looser shirts. I keep getting looks. Again, I'm sure it isn't more than it was two weeks ago, but it feels worse!
Yeesh, I really need to just relax! LOL it never goes away, does it?
This is so funny! Isn't it just like us IF'ers to assume everyone is whispering about us???
ReplyDeleteI have the same issues with stuff at work - our walls are so incredibly thin. And my voice isn't exactly the quietest ever. The guy that has the office next to me works for me, but we're actually pretty good friends. I'm sure he's heard pretty clearly some interesting conversations - and crying... Thank goodness he's fairly evolved for a man, and just tries to act like nothing happened. He has a couple kids, and has been through a lot I think - not totally sure, but he's dropped a few hints. We were talking about a month ago, and he mentioned that his wife had a miscarriage before his first kid was born, and he said it was pretty common. I looked at him, took a deep breath, and told him I had had a miscarriage (didn't go into all the details). He just looked at me and said, "yeah, I know. I'm not stupid, and I pay attention..." We have never talked about my TTC thing - ever.
I don't mean to feed the paranoid fuel, but if people pay attention, they probably can figure things out. But who cares, right? Hopefully people have enough class to leave you alone until you're comfortable coming out of the closet.
And at least it's an AWESOME secret!!!!
BTW - love the new blog look!
They may know. People in offices have a weird way of just "knowing" things. But I would just keep your game face on and act as normal as possible. If you change what type of clothes you wear, you might give them even more to talk about. :)
ReplyDeleteI wish I could tell you it goes away... Some of the most fun days I've ever had at work was letting the tongues wag though, enjoy your secret =)
ReplyDeleteThat's funny, when do you want to tell your work?
ReplyDeleteI agree w/Alex - at least it's an awesome secret! :)
ReplyDeleteI think most people are curious beings and the workplace is a hub for gossip which is a universal human behaviour that we all engage in at some time or another. If you think about it, we spend more time with our co-workers than with our families. Gossip serves a functional purpose for employees and organizations because it sometimes helps to cement the bonds of a friendly work environment. When you are a woman and reach a certain age, having kids is the expected norm.
ReplyDeleteToo funny! Hopefully most of the staff will be away for the summer so you can 'develop' in peace....
ReplyDeleteI think I have gotten many more questions too since our BFP... I just say "we're working on it" when asked if/when we'll have a baby. That way I'm not lying but I'm not spilling the beans!
ReplyDeleteYou may think you look normal, but your face may show the excitement of keeping your secret and your colleagues may pick up some of that energy.
ReplyDeleteKeeping a secret invariably makes you a little paranoid.
Maybe I'm naive, but I think most people want to know not just out of curiosity, but because they care and like hearing good news.
Still, I understand wanting to treasure your secret a little while longer!
Must say I feel privileged that you confided in us!
I still feel excited writing about your pregnancy! It's been so long since I started wishing it for you!
I can't wait to hear more chapters of Spider Embie's Revenge!
Torture them :) Do it! Keep that secret as long as you can :) And enjoy the hell out of it :)
ReplyDeleteaww, let them talk! Enjoy your wonderful news. :)
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry I missed your BFP! I am so ecstatically excited for you! I definitely say keep it a secret!
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