I'm 10w4d today. Isn't that crazy? Something about hitting the double digits just makes it seem huge.
How are things going around here? OK, really. Work is back in full force and I'm trying to keep my head above water. My anxiety levels have been rising quite a bit lately. I think hormones have given my ability to calm myself down the old heave-ho. I'd gotten pretty good at dealing with my chronic anxiety, but not right now.
I'm worried beyond reason for my u/s next week (a week from today). This week is going to drag on forever. I just can't get it out of my head that something will be wrong. My DH has to keep telling me everything is OK. It will be 5 weeks since the last u/s and it just makes me so nervous. It was so early on at that point (the heart had just started beating) and I'm having a hard time trusting that things have been moving along well on their own.
I think I'm just feeling like an impostor whenever I try to think of myself as pregnant and so I'm having a really hard time believing that it's true. I don't mean to sound like such a nervous crazy person, but it's just how I'm feeling right now.
If I were a commenter on my blog I would say "it's normal to feel nervous and I'm sure everything is OK." And, I know that's most likely true. And, I keep saying that to myself. And, I'm really trying to believe it.
We are the exact same amount of days along in our pregnancies! Congratulations! Wishing you nothing but the best!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure your u/s next week will go great but I totally understand your anxiety. It took until I was 30 weeks or so to really believe it was happening =)
ReplyDelete"It's normal to feel nervous and I'm sure everything is OK." Does that help? No? :)
ReplyDeleteI completely understand your anxiety and I'm sending calming thoughts (and strong h/b thoughts) your way!! I really do think you'll have a great appt next week!!
I still get nervous before an u/s. I hope this next week goes by fast for you!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on double digits! I completely understand your anxiety. I think I would feel that way with every u/s, no matter how far along I was. So I'll just say that I hope the next week goes by VERY fast and that your appointment goes well. :)
ReplyDeleteI hear ya! I'm 10 wks tomorrow, and I'm a total basketcase. My u/s is Friday, and that will have only been 2 weeks since my last one, but I'm terrified that something has gone wrong in the past week and a half. It's a little bit consuming.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to hear that everything is rocking and rolling according to plan.
I wrote a post very similar to this just a few days ago. I have been on edge this entire pregnancy. I'm just now at a point where I'm starting to relax. I think the nerves are normal, and as much as I love ultrasounds they totally freak me out!
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking of you this week, I'm sure everything will go well!
It goes by so fast, doesn't it? The anxiety is normal, I am sorry to say. I was a nervous wreck before my 12w NT scan. I was sure they were going to tell me the baby had died. Take solace in the fact that if something HAD gone wrong you would likely have some sort of physical symptom at this point.
ReplyDeleteI get nervous all the time too. Can you move your appt for this week? Everything will be fine!
ReplyDeleteIt's normal to feel nervous and everything will be fine :-)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on double digits!!
Do you think fertiles get this worried too? I can't imagine not being nervous but there's lots of us out here sending lots of good vibes your way, so I don't think your baby would dare to disobey us!
ReplyDeleteYou already know what my comment is! I have been extremely worried and cautious as well...just can't help it! double digits is awesome...
ReplyDeleteHoping you find peace today! :)
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