Still on the hunt

Thank you all so much, again.  And, thank you for your recommendations on finding therapists.  I'm following through on as many of them as I can.  Resolve doesn't have anyone listed in Missouri or anywhere else that seems even vaguely nearby.  But, I'm starting to e-mail random IF therapists to see if they happen to know someone closer to me.  I called the ones listed on my insurance as having experience in IF.  One doesn't seem to exist anymore (she may be the one that everyone else keeps saying "just left") and one is overbooked and says she doesn't have a lot of experience with IF.  I'm on her waiting list.  The third one seems to actually specialize in forensic psychology and doesn't have a lot of experience with IF.

I never thought finding help would be this difficult. I thought reaching out for it would be the hard part.  Sometimes I really HATE living in the middle of nowhere.

And, how frustrating is it that so many of us have dealt with RE's who seem to abandon us after the first consultation???

I think my next step is to call the other fertility clinic in the town I travel to for treatments and see if they have recommendations.  I also might try to set up an appointment with them.  I told my DH we would try 3 months on our own (and this is only month two), but I figure that getting an appointment for a second opinion wouldn't hurt.  Besides, who knows how long it might take to get an appointment.

My DH and I spent the long weekend with friends of his from college who have a house on a lake in northern Minnesota.  We had a wonderful time.  I really needed to get away a bit.  And, it was so beautiful with fall-like weather.  I love cool, crisp, fall air.  Watching the stars on Saturday night while sitting around the fire with good friends and their sweet children was just perfect.  Paddling around on the kayak and chatting with the loons just made my day. (I kept thinking about Oak and hoping the loons were protected from the eagles!!)

My DH is friends with all of the siblings in this family (there are 5 of them) and is closest with one sister who got married the year before we did.  She and her husband also don't have kids.  I don't know if they have been trying or not.  We never have talked about it.  My guess is that they're either trying now or they don't plan on trying (she's about 40 or so).  We stayed with them in Minneapolis on the way up and down and drove up with them.  I feel like it is something that keeps hanging over all of our heads when we're together.  She's the only one of her siblings without at least two kids and I'm sure her mother has put pressure on her (she's a lovely lady but definitely would push about it).  I find myself afraid to bring it up with them and I'm not sure why. I don't know if I'm afraid that I'll get pregnant and she'll feel bad or if I'm afraid she'll get pregnant and I'll feel bad.  Or, if I'll bring it up and they have never planned on kids and then we'll all feel a little awkward.

I suck at sharing

Coming back home was tough -- all my stress rushed back.  I wish I could figure out how to keep the benefits of a vacation after the vacation was over!!!