(Picture Debbie Reynolds in "Singing in the Rain" as you read that title...)
(But don't picture the fact that the next line is "It's great to stay up late" because I didn't stay up late, I just have this stuck in my head for no particular reason.)
(Well, other than the fact that it is morning and I've been randomly singing songs from various musicals for about a week.)
(Speaking of which, my TiVo taped "The Pirate" for me as a suggestion last weekend and, when watching the dream ballet sequence with Gene Kelly in hot pants, I blurted out to my husband "man, he has sexy legs." Boy howdy. See the scene on YouTube starting at about the 4:00 mark. Am I wrong? I don't think so.)
(OK, so, apparently my brain is in a little bit of a distracted place. I mean, I don't usually start posts parenthetically. Yeesh.)
Let's try this again. Good morning everyone and welcome anyone from ICLW! I wasn't going to do ICLW this month because it is the last week of the semester and work is crazy, but then I remembered that next week was NIAW and I realized I wanted to participate in that as much as possible. So, here we are.
As always, for my overly detailed history see the sidebar. Briefly (or as brief as I can be, ha!), we've been TTC our first since 10/2008. After 20 months we got pregnant on a "down" cycle only to miscarry at about 11.5 weeks. That BFP was a year ago this month. I had a lap to remove a fibroid, a bit of endo and some adhesions in January. March was our first Follistim IUI. This month I'm on the medication sidelines again due to a large-ish leftover cyst from our last cycle. Today starts the 1WW of a natural cycle.
I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself this month, I think. I know the cyst reduces our chances of even a natural cycle, but I keep thinking that it would sure be nice to conceive exactly one year after the last time. Not really feeling it and all signs point to "no," but it would be nice.
I've also been feeling a little down because it's Passover and I, once again, missed my family's Seder because I'm just too damn far away and can't miss school during the last two weeks of class. My DH truly doesn't understand and it's just adding to all the "end of the semester" stress.
Thanks for all the support from my last post. With a few days passing, I feel much better and less snarky jealous about it. I actually found myself getting excited sharing information with M about testing, etc. I do think this has great potential to bring us even closer and back together a bit from the past few years.
Anyhoo, I should probably get ready for my morning lab.
("Good morning, good morning to you!")
(I have a strong desire to dance onto the back of a couch and make it fall over gracefully.)
I LOVE that song : ) I'm really glad I didn't see this until I got to work, because all I want to do is watch it now.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to say I know how you feel about Passover. This year, for the first time in over 10, I'm not keeping it. And we didn't do a real Seder, also for the first time in my life. I was feeling really sad about it on Monday, so I tried to pull one together at the last minute just for the two of us. It definitely made me feel better to have a Seder plate, but when I went to eat the Hillel sandwich, I discovered that our matzah had gone bad. Who knew that even happened! So that scratched my plans for a real Passover meal. But it's useful info to have: matzah can go a little rancid between the 3 and 4 year mark after you buy it : ) So anyway, I'm thinking of you and wishing we lived closer. <3
I am sorry you have to miss out on celebrating with your family. That just sucks. These are times when I am truly, badly hate being so far away from my loved ones, and from our traditions. And the same here about DH. He gets none of that! booo:(
ReplyDeleteI am hoping you may still do something special for the two of you!
Only 1 week to go!
Cheering for my fave' Twinnie!:)
I love that song, and movie. It rocks.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you missed your passover seder. :(
Will you teach me how to dance onto the back of the couch and make it fall over gracefully? I've always wanted to do that, but I'm afraid it will go very badly...
ReplyDeleteTry to do something special for Passover with the two of you - start your own traditions! I know, it's hard to be away from family at holidays...
And I have everything crossed that this month is it for you - oh wouldn't that be fantastic?
Ah, the infamous self imposed pressure. Will we ever learn to live without it?
ReplyDeleteAs you've read on my blog, I'm having a really bad, emotional day, so I really have nothing smart to say except to thank you for always commenting, and for offering me support. Thank you so much. You've made me feel less alienated and alone.
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ReplyDeleteGreat to hear that you're feeling better and that you're feeling positive about sharing with M... sure it will help you both :)
Love always xoxo
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I pray that you get that BFP soon! And that the little one sticks around for 9 months. :) You've had quite a journey- it's time for your luck to change.
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good morning! it's always good to get everything out -- that does lead to feeling much better about it. and i'm sure that your friend will be as good a support to you as you are to her.
ReplyDeletei hope this one week wait goes quickly and ends in a surprise for you. :)
Wishing you a very Happy Pssover, my friend! :) last year my mom was sick & it just didn't feel right to have Passover without her being there, & this year...well, you know how hard this year is right now for me. thanks so much for your kind words! thinking of you & wishing you nothing but the best of luck! xo
ReplyDeleteHello from ICLWland! I can totally relate to being bummed about being away from family on special days. I live about 5 hours away from most of my family, and several days away from others. It's depressing!
ReplyDeleteWishing you all kinds of luck on all upcoming cycles!
We're on another coast from our family-it can be lonely.
ReplyDeleteI left you an award over on my website-yours is one of my favorite blogs! All the best to you, as always.
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ReplyDeleteHappy ICLW and NIAW! Hoping you get a BFP that sticks soon! I also am known for randomly singing songs in my head (and out loud)!
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