Calmer

Spotting stopped yesterday afternoon.  So far so good.

*Insert giant sigh of relief.*

And, thank you for all your reassurances.  I swear I don't mean to be a neurotic mess.

(But, I'm warning you now that I probably will be.)

Part of my problem yesterday was that I made a boneheaded mistake Sunday night and I was just feeling really off and stupid.  A former colleague and his wife (close friends who moved away in August) were in town -- the husband just for a day, the wife for the rest of the week.  Another friend invited us over for dinner with them Sunday night.  The invite came several weeks ago and my DH and I had RSVP'd and were planning on going.  We even talked about it on Saturday and how we were going to go for a while no matter what -- even if I felt bad from the OHSS.

And then, well, Sunday was kind of a big day -- you know, the BFP and all.  :)  And, I was cleaning as much as I could all day (we've got houseguests coming this weekend) and I felt kind of like crap.  I'm OK-ish in the mornings, I look 4 months pregnant, but I can at least breathe and walk.  But, by the end of the day, my stomach is hard as a rock, I can't button my pants (pants that were two sizes too big last week), it hurts to walk and I get short of breath.  Somehow, with all of that, I just completely forgot about the dinner! 

And, I felt horrible.  SO embarrassed.  There was just supposed to be one other couple there besides the hosts and the guests of honor.  I felt like they must have assumed we didn't care -- which couldn't have been further from the truth because I miss them and was so excited to see them!  When I was getting into bed, I suddenly remembered, and immediately sent e-mail apologies to all of them. I called my DH at work and he couldn't believe he'd forgotten, too.  He kept telling me it was OK and that "we've got a lot going on right now."  But, they don't know about any of it, so have no idea that we weren't just being rude.  It made me so upset.  That sort of giant social faux pas always puts me off kilter for a while.

So, in the morning, I was still feeling "off."  Then, I saw blood. 

Anyhow...

Yeah, you're probably hoping for a beta update.  Well, not for a while.  Because of class, I can't get to the doctor's office until 2 this afternoon, so we're all going to have to keep waiting...  They offered me to have the blood drawn in town, but I'm doctorless at the moment.  I am not going back to the OB who was so callous during my miscarriage, and I don't want to go through the hassle of trying to explain what's going on to a new OB until things are a little bit further along.  And, we've had really bad luck with the hospital lab in town.  So, I'd rather make the trip.  Besides, I'd like to chat with them a bit about the OHSS in person as well and make sure that I'm doing OK and that gatorade and salt are still the only things I need to worry about.

So, eventually, this will be a double post kind of day.  With good news.  I'm feeling confident of that.