Random thoughts before retrieval

• Retrieval is tomorrow morning!  
• Triggered last night.  Boy do I feel bloaty.  Walking is not fun. 
• You know, it is weird to me that you can't tell from the outside when someone is going through IVF.  I mean, I feel like my belly should be sticking out and looking all bulgy.  But, in reality, it looks completely normal.  I'm waddling like I'm 9 months pregnant, though.  
• Yesterday I started wondering if anyone else in my town of 17,000 is going through IVF right now.  I know others in the town have had kids through IVF, but I wonder if anyone is currently going through it.  It was just a strange thought.  (Those of you in large cities probably don't "get" this because obviously someone else is going through it.)  "Hi" if you're out there...
• My DH finally admitted that he's feeling nervous about this.  He just really wants us to get a good number of eggs so we have a chance of a frozen transfer later if we need it.  So do I.  The uncertainty is killing me.  I just have to keep reminding myself that what we really want is *the* one.
• He's also a little nervous about "performing."  I keep telling him if he could do it under the worst circumstances, he's fine.  And, besides, we've got the back-up sample just in case...(And, I really think he'll be fine.)
• He's so cute because he's been clinging to his "How to Make Love to a Plastic Cup" and giving me all sorts of updates from it.  He had new tips about giving the trigger shot last night.  That was, of course, before he once again made all sorts of sad puppy sounds at having to give it.  I realize it's a pretty big needle in comparison to the sub-cutaneous ones I used for stims, but seriously, let it go.  You've done this 7 times before and I'm the one with all the pressure to mix it correctly and it's not like you've ever hurt me with it or that I even wince.  Just be thankful I'm using suppositories and not PIO for progesterone support and move on!
• We'll be staying in a hotel tonight so we can get to the RE's office early tomorrow morning.  It's a good thing because it will force us to relax -- no cleaning, no cooking, no working.  Just lying on the bed watching TV.  

There are other things like my deep thoughts about ICSI and someone choosing which sperm will fertilize which eggs (that's just odd to imagine, isn't it?)  But, I really need to get some work done before we leave town!!!  Retrieval number updates tomorrow!