A happy post!

OK, so I feel like I've been ranting and complaining too much and I want to post something happy.  Not sure what, though... it'll come to me...  um...

Ooh, I mentioned once before that I've been doing guided imagery meditation every day this cycle.  It's been wonderful.  It's a program specifically for fertility (I'd rather not advertise it here, but if you want to know what it is e-mail me at sweetsoils at yahoo dot com).  I have no idea if it really does anything or not, but it definitely has helped me relax and fall asleep more easily.  I've done relaxation programs before (I've had chronic anxiety for a long time) but these are great because they're different every day to reflect what is going on in your cycle.  I tend to get really bored and distracted if I listen to the same thing over and over.  And, when you're trying to meditate, it's not a good thing if your mind drifts off to what you're going to wear the next day and then, by the time you realize it, the program is over!

Anyway, it is a really lovely way to end the day.  Lying quietly, picturing hormones flowing from my brain to my ovaries.  Picturing eggs popping out of follies and beautiful, fluffy uterine linings welcoming a fertilized egg that is growing quickly.  OK, so it's probably not the way many people would want to drift off to sleep, but it works for an IFer!  I think, if nothing else, it is helping me stay more positive about all of this and have positive images to focus on.

So, there you go.  Something positive!  I knew I had it in me! :)