Yes, dear, women are always wondering that

I'm so missing my DH right now.  He's on his way to Vancouver for a conference and I cried my eyes out dropping him off at the airport.  It's only until Wednesday so I'm not sure what my problem is.  I'm not normally so clingy.  I guess I hadn't realized how much I've been leaning on him for the past month or so.  I couldn't sleep last night because I started having irrational thoughts about scary things happening that I won't even say.  Seriously, I'm usually fine on my own (and, honestly, sometimes celebrate the freedom), but this post m/c me is a whole new Rebecca.  I just want to be with him and hold his hand.  Sigh...  Just four days. 

Speaking of my DH, though...

Yesterday we went up to Iowa to see his family for dinner before my DH's flight today (because we live in the middle of nowhere and have to drive 3 hours to catch a plane...).  They were in town for his family reunion (which we couldn't make it to), so we went up to see them.  This was only the second time I've ever met his half-brother -- the first was at our wedding and we barely spent any time together then.  So, I was glad to go to see him and meet his girlfriend. 

As we were driving up I said to my DH:  "I feel like in the past month I've been drinking more than normal because I've been intentionally drinking whenever we're around people so they won't think I'm pregnant.  With all of our friends, I keep making sure I order a drink so they won't wonder.  It was hard enough when we were trying or when I was pregnant to know that they might be thinking it.  Now, I just can't deal with them doing the math 'huh, when was the last time I saw Rebecca drink?'  I'm sure I'll do it again tonight.  The last thing I want is your mother wondering."

He brushed it off.  "No one thinks that.  Some women just don't drink that much.  I knew plenty of women in grad school who just didn't drink sometimes."

I laughed.  "Uh, honey, maybe men don't think that, but women think it constantly.  If any woman 'of a certain age' doesn't have a drink when everyone else around her does, I guarantee you at least 85% of the women in the room are thinking 'huh, wonder if she's pregnant?  Or maybe they're trying.'  Especially if she's been married for a little bit and hasn't had any kids.  I know I breathe a sigh of relief every time we go out on Fridays with D & W and D orders a drink.  I know she wonders about the times I don't.  The day she stops drinking is the day I'm going to have to stop showing up for Happy Hour."

He shook his head.  "I don't know.  I don't think all women do that.  And, if you all do, you're all just crazy."

Fast forward four hours. 

We're having a really nice dinner and a great time and I did order a glass of wine...ah, lovely, relaxing red wine.  Sigh...  Definitely needed it because they kept talking about our nephews and the BIL's girlfriend's (K) brand new nephew.  K starts telling the story of how her brother announced that he and his wife were pregnant by saying that they were "thankful for the new addition" at Thanksgiving dinner.

She said "well, I knew something was up before that because two days before we had all gone out for dinner and his wife didn't have anything to drink.  I pulled my brother aside and asked 'Is she pregnant?'"

It was so hard not to turn to my DH and say "SEEE???"  I was dying I was laughing on the inside so much.  It was just too perfect.  As soon as we left the restaurant we both just starting laughing so hard we were crying.  (Well, I was crying, my DH doesn't do that.)

Thank goodness I ordered that drink!!!! :)